Oh!, how the tables have turned.

This morning. I was prepared to beg. I was ready to ask for forgiveness, even if my hands haven't move.

I was writing a letter to a friend, 'cause I made a mistake, I screwed up big time. And I know this is the killing line. But I hate the word 'sorry' when is coming out of my mouth. It's hard for me, not 'cause I can't feel it. But because I feel awkward saying it.

And after I was done, I was going to post it here.

But then all starts to makes sense. People making a whole idea of me, with words that aren't coming out of my mouth. I felt so vulnerable right there, in that moment. I can see how I can't even trust my friends.

That I should back up like I used to do.

Is that what you want me to do?. Or am I making a whole deal again?.

I'm still strong with the sorry pasted on my heart, while my forehead says everything I've done wrong.

It's too much for me to take right now. I can't get myself involved again in the losing a friend resolution.

So I will back up, and pretend we never met.

Just like you do.

'Cause I'm not free, I have to be chained up at somebody. Even if it hurts to see how my best friend is another person in the world.

How the original post started?

"I'm sorry is not even enough, I don't deserve you, and I know I'm stupid."

When did all of you planned on turning your backs on me?.


"Remorse is hard to fake, when you only feel sorry for yourself."