What the fuck is wrong with the world?.

I've been holding all the pieces of my world. But I only have two hands. And I can now hear all the tickling they made in the floor.

It's either crying on random moments that you can barely hold. Or just closing your eyes to imaging you are somewhere else.

I've been feeling alone in a room with 45 people for the past month.

I've loss the trust in some of my best friends that now I can only call friends.

I get the feeling again of something is missing.

But what I've been learning while during this experience?.

That I'm not alone. I'm just not looking in the right place.

That somehow, it will all get better.

Maybe you'll need to take baby steps, maybe you don't even have to stand up.

Nope, I'm still not happy, and things are not getting done like I want them to. You may say I'm stupid for saying all that.

But it's called hope you dumbass. And I think we all should have it. If you think you are losing it, talk to a friend. It is worth it. Take the risk. Or just talk to me. I will listen.

Anyways. During my thinking time. I've grow hard with a new hero.

She has been keeping my mind right. Sarah Dessen<3. Thank you. Your books are just plain awesome.

Still... I think I need a flush of all this, and not even writing is making the whole deal. I want to find new friends:).

And, I feel like my relationship with God is improving. I started to push him away from me, but now I'm back again following his steps. I'm sorry I once turn my head the other way.

And before I close. I want to make a public apology; Sorry for taking our friendship too seriously when it was barely nothing. Sorry for insulting you if I didn't have a reason why. Sorry for proving you that yes. I am childish. Just sorry.

p.s; FAJITA IS HERE. tomorrow pictures of her and the hell of a hotel.

p.p.s; Shane Dawson takes credit of being my half hero too.

p.p.p.s; I have new readers<3. I'm sorry for being a baby about it xd.

p.p.p.p.s; I haven't sleep in 2 days. And yes indeed it sucks.

p.p.p.p.p.s; I need somebody.

"Goodbye, my hopeless dream. I'm trying not to think about you. Can't you just let me be?."