Finally all come to this.

Today.

Today my dad told us that he was leaving the house. And well, the same rambling about how he was still going to stick around, or come visit us.

Anyways. The thing is, after all that we left to our room. And I had this big bitchy smile on my face.

But then I heard my sister cry. And suddenly, it all hit me.

I won't see him again. Every time I get up in the morning. He won't be there. He won't call us to take a bath or brush our teeth. He won't have a Toblerone hidden to randomly give us a piece. There are a lot of other things left but the tears are clouding my sight.

The point is.

He won't be here. Period.

It sucks 'cause I was going to complain about men today. And this happened.

You don't have to say I told you so. 'Cause I know I said I wouldn't care. And I was looking for something to happen.

I deserve this.

I'm trying to fake my smile around people so they won't ask about it.

But whatever, I really don't want to talk about this, I can't let myself be again, the weak one. I won't.

This is really difficult and I don't know how I will tell my friends about it. I hope everything will find it's place eventually.

Just like it's meant to be.

p.s; I'm trying so hard to smile again.

p.p.s; Jacob will forever stay in my imagination.

p.p.p.s; I miss my friends<3.

p.p.p.p.s; This ruined my first day of class.

"Now that I'm grown I've seen marriages fall to pieces;Now that I'm grown I've seen friendships fall to pieces."