My last words will be my last song

Have you ever been jealous of somebody?.

I hate to admit this. But sometimes I'm jealous of my big sister.

She is the kind of person that have this sign on her forehead that says "Fuck you I don't like you.". The girl who doesn't have that many friends. The girl that is not capable of being sociable.

And I know what you may think by now. Why would I be jealous of some one like her?.

Well, that girl has everything. I can't.

She can do anything. She can draw, she is creative. My mom used to put us in camps when we were kids and she was always good at everything the teacher put us to do.

She is beautiful on the outside, she can dye her hair blonde and she looks gorgeous. Me on the other side not so good. She can dye it red and everybody says how good she looks. I dye my hair in a crazy way and people talk behind my back saying how bad it looks.

She can leave her hair natural curly or straight. I look awkward with curly hair.

Her clothes are prettier. And she doesn't even care.

Everybody always remembers her name which I think it's idiotic 'cause Laura is simple and not too hard to remember.

My sister is basically a bitch, and everything I've always wanted to be.

I know I'm pathetic/childish and if she ever reads this I'm dead. But I know someway you'll understand.

Just so you know I love my sister and I would never hate her for this. I know this is a stupid feeling and I won't blame her. I do love her a lot :). Even if sometimes it's hard to live in the shadow of somebody else.


SOO. back to what's new today. I'm going to a hotel this weekend :), but don't worry I already selected the WI FI section where I will be posting everything from there by days. It will be 3 days:), and I hope it will work out.

Bad news?, daddy decided that he isn't going 'cause he have to work.

I have no problem with this but. The man is in his vacations right now.

I will have my bedroom locked in case he tries to do some nasty shit on my house with anyone while we are not here.

annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd.... I think that's it :).

p.s; I'm getting a new puppy next week I'll put some pictures of him.

p.p.s; I have a new lover, Andrew McMahon. Google him if your stupid little head don't know who he is.

p.p.p.s; I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS WEEKEND. I'm so excited I need to get out of here :).

p.p.p.p.s; Tomorrow I'll be busy shaving and washing my hair T.T so don't expect any news from me.

p.p.p.p.p.s; I still apologize for the post from the other day.


"I can hear them whisper, and it makes me think there must be something wrong with me; Out of all the hours thinking... Somehow I've lost my mind."